Boy, oh boy. A lot's been going on lately. Good stuff - mixed with some stressful stuff. Sometimes I just don't know where I fit in in the midst of life happening around me. Satan just really has a heyday with me at times, which is extremely unfortunate. Some things swirling around in my brain right now....
I just found out that I'll be losing the job I've had at the end of the year. I LOVE my job. I worked full time for about 3.5 years with my company, and once I had James, my boss allowed me to continue to work about 10 hours a week from home. While I respect my boss' decision, and know she wants to do what's best for our department, man, I am hurt. I thought I fit in there. I felt like it was a big outlet for me that had nothing to do with ministry where I had the opportunity to help with the mission of my company. Now, it will be gone, and I feel unsure about that. I feel embarrassed and like I didn't measure up - even though that's the words of the devil, not of my boss or of the Father. I'm worried about our finances. I'm hopeful a position may open in another department - I'm praying that it will. We'll see...
Once something happens in one area, it's like I start to doubt other areas. I think, "I'm not a good wife, I'm not a good mom, I can't do a good job with anything."....and clearly, I know these things are not true. Just seems like when one domino falls, I choose to push all the others down. That mixed with stress Landon is under (much from the pressure he puts on himself), it's a difficult combination. Seems like not a whole lot of "fun" is being had around here. :) Why is it so hard to remember the TRUTH? Why is it so hard to focus on the positive? Why is it so hard to TRUST God? I know nothing catches Him by surprise.
- We are blessed to be at our church. We love our church family.
- I have several really great friends who are a huge support to me. I love them very much, and I know our friendship is not based on my performance.
- I have an incredible husband. He is real and authentic - he is trying to allow God to change him everyday and I see that. Wow, I'm lucky.
- I have the privilege to be a mom. Enough said. What a blessing.
- God knows what is going to happen with us at the beginning of next year. He will take care of us.
I've got a lot of truth telling I need to be telling myself. So, today I am going to pick myself up from the "sorry to be me" pit, and AGAIN, give my "stuff" over to God this morning. I have everything I need for life and Godliness, and I am His workmanship...seriously, dude, what else could I ask for??? I want to share my Jesus Calling for today:
As you become increasingly aware of My Presence, you find it easier to discern the way you should go. This is one of the practical benefit of living close to Me. Instead of wondering about what is on the road ahead or worrying about what you should do it...or when...you an concentrate on staying in communication with Me. When you actually arrive at a choice-point, I will show you which direction to go.
Many people are so preoccupied with future plans and decisions that they ail to see choices they need to make today. Without any conscious awareness, they make their habitual responses. People who live this way find a dullness creeping into their lives. They sleepwalk through the days, following well-worn paths of routine.
I, the Creator of the universe, am the most creative Being imaginable. I will not leave you circling in deeply rutted paths. Instead, I will lead you along fresh trails of adventure, revealing to you thinks you did not know. Stay in communication with Me. Follow My guiding presence.
You know, I do fit in. I fit in with Christ, and aside from anywhere else I fit in, this is all that matters. Please help me to remember that, Father!!
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
This past Saturday we did something pretty fun (um, a little stressful but mostly fun) with our church ladies. I had painted one other canvas, and I thought this experience would be like that one. Well...it wasn't. So, lo and behold, we get to the church that morning, and the artist arrives, and the canvases are BLANK. Seriously. Blank. Yeah, so although that made it little more stressful - it also made it relaly fun. We watched the artist step by step and followed along with our own painting. It was VERY fun. I wish we'd had more ladies, but I know it's a busy time of year, and perhaps painting doesn't sound fun to everyone? I don't know, it sounded fun to me - mainly talking to my friends and eating and eating and eating sounded fun to me :)
All of us before we started...
The artist, Tracy, with all her stuff ready at the front
Here's my paiting. NOW...these are supposed to be the fruits of the spirit. Please don't neglect to note that I put "faith" and "faithfulness"...right.
And here we all are with our paintings. Great job ladies!!
We had such a great time this past Saturday evening with our Sunday School class. The Sears' family invited us all over for a hayride, petting animals, eating, painting pumpkins, riding the zipline, bobbing for apples, a bonfire...etc. etc. etc....it was AWESOME!!! A little stressful with James, but mainly lots of fun. And only stressful, mostly, because we didn't bring James' chair he eats in, and we tried to sit him in a regular folding chair and it was just kind of nightmarish...and then that stress caused Lan and me to not get along well...you know...the downward spiral just happens. :) But, we recovered nicely, and fairly quickly, and still had a great time. The preparation the Sears' went to was unreal! Their family cabin was beautiful. I sure do love our Sun. School class at Bethabra. I am very, very thankful for all the couples God has brought - those ladies are some of my dearest friends.....see pictures...
The pumpkin James (Landon) decorated...
The beginning of James' meal when things were actually going well
playing on the hayride after dinner...you can see it had been a battle because I didn't even try to wipe his face
Lan and I both rode the little zipline - it was little...but still scary to me. This is me faking like I'm really excited about doing it before I did it...
Landon and James by the bonfire
James and Finn playing at the end of the night...right before going home with a bunch of cars Ms. Elizabeth found for them to play with
Monday, October 24, 2011
James is really funny about our Bibles...but especially about Landon's. He can say the word Bible (clearly enough that you can understand it, anyway), and when he sees a Bible, he'll just keep calling it out over and over and over again (also similar to when he sees a picture of or a fake deer and how he calls out "deer" a million times). He is really sweet about Bibles though. The other night Landon was showing James his Bible since James grabbed it off the chair and wanted to look at it - very sweet.
This is dumb, but I really wanted James to have an Elmo backpack. I got this Sesame St. thing in the mail where you could join their club and pay a low amount of money and get the first big package in the mail (and then you have to remember to cancel it if you don't want to continue to get shipments). The first big package includes the Elmo backpack. I was in, People - seriously, I wanted the baby to have an Elmo backpack. And look, wasn't it worth it????? DUH. Yes.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
4 skinless boneless chicken breast halves
6 oz egg noodles
1 can cream of chicken soup
1 can cream of mushroom soup
8 oz sour cream
salt and pepper to taste
1 cup buttery round crackers (I used 2 cups...)
1/2 cup butter, melted to pour over crackers
1. Boil or bake chicken and cut into small pieces.
2. Boil egg noodles (they said to boil it in the water you boiled the chicken in - that would have been good, but I needed to bake the chicken and boil the egg noodles at the same time, so that just didn't work for me).
3. Mix mushroom soup, chicken soup, sour cream, boiled egg noodles, cut up chicken, salt and pepper to taste in a mixing bowl. Place in 2 quart baking dish.
4. Mash up crackers and mix with melted butter to put on top.
5. Bake at 350 degrees for 30 minutes until heated through and brown on top.
Now, I do have to tell you that Landon does not love this meal. He likes it okay, but he's a big FLAVOR person. He wants stuff to have some "heat" or some "spice" or some excitement having a party in his mouth. I like that kind of stuff okay, but I must be a real true southerner because I love some casseroles. This is like a comfort food casserole to me. We had it with creamed corn and sister Schubert yeast rolls :) Yum. And, I had a great time with my lady friends whose husbands were busy that night. I was tired.
This morning I had a Sr. Adult planning meeting - I love being on the Sr. Adult ministry team at church - ha. Those are some of my favorite activities, and I am super excited about the events coming up....Lake Lanier is coming soon!!!!! We're having our family pictures made this week, our hair cut (me and Lan), and our other regular stuff going on. Also, a couple that is close to us is really hurting - please pray for them.
I am blessed :)
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Whew! It has been a REALLY busy weekend. Landon did his first official Bethabra wedding on Saturday. He had rehearsal Friday night, and then the wedding on Saturday. It was a precious wedding - just beautiful - and we were so grateful they asked Landon to be a part of it. But, we were tired! And not nearly as tired as everyone who volunteered countless hours of their time helping with all the wedding decor and details! :) Landon dvr'd the Gator game since it started at 3:30pm here. We watched it when we got home...and it was a sad ending. But, a very cute little boy dressed in his gator clothes earlier in the day :) Oh, and he never stops moving now...so this is basically the best I can get.
This is just random from the other night. These are some jammies Grandaddy and Nanna bought for James. It was our first "alittlecold" night so I wanted him to wear them. He's in 18 month clothes now and these are 24 months, and I couldn't believe how big they were! Yikes - they were falling down the whole time. Cracked me up. It will be a few months before he can wear the pants - since he's so skinny, mainly.
My latest homemaking project....
It even cracks me up to write "homemaking"- I'm like not a homemaker. I don't like to scrapbook. I don't like to stay at home for long periods of time. I'm not crafty. Yet, sometimes now that I am a mom, I must do things. This was something I had to do. We've had the fence up around our fireplace - but James figure out how to pull it back and get behind it. Several times (more than several) he would watch me very intently and then get back there and just be standing back there on the fireplace hearth and he was so proud. I knew the fence was basically over and we needed to move to something else. I didn't want to get those dumb fireplace corners. Especially since our fireplace is stacked stone, I didn't think it would go around the hearth right. So then, I was at a friend's house, and I saw something she'd done and it gave me an idea. I went to Wal-Mart with the intent to spend as little money as possible - but I had to get good return from whatever I did spend - SAFETY. I bought a full size egg carton foam mattress thingy. Then I bought a black curtain that was marked to like $9.99. I knew the measurements I needed. I cut the mattress in half and then sewed by hand the black curtain over the mattress and tried to like fold up and round the corners. I think it is EXCELLENT. I actually think maybe I could like make these and sell them on ebay or craigs list or etsy or something uh, not really. If you lifted up the fabric and turned it upside down and saw how disgusting it looks from my handiwork....um, you wouldn't want me to make one for you. But listen, I really think this is going to serve our purpose. And do you know how many times James has climbed up there? Two times. Two times in about two weeks now. I'd say that's success. He just acts like there was never a fence there and it's no big deal. For now...success.
Today has been a typical Sunday. Landon did a great job on the sermon this morning - he talked out of Ecclesiastes about time - how you don't know how much time you have in your life before it's over - we aren't promised tomorrow. And he played this clock ticking throughout the entire message and then at the end he just stopped the clock. When I went to get james after church they told me he had been sleeping for about 30 minutes. I firmly believe they just need to survive in the nursery during church - so whatever they need to do is okay with me...but man, I knew that might mess up his nap. We went to lunch where he was really well behaved since he'd just slept and he ate the mess out of some chicken from my nachos. When I got him home, I thought he was actually going to take a nap, but then that didn't work out. He started out just talking to himself, so I thought, oh well, he'll talk and fuss and go to sleep. Then he started screaming like he was hurt. So, I had to go in. His knee was stuck in the crib slats. Again. It hasn't happened in a whil, but is just unfortunate. I finally had to call Landon in there because I didn't think I could get it out. I took him in the bed with me and he was sleepy there...but then he started sticking his finger up my nose and poking out my closed eye so finally I was like...forget it dude. you can just stay up. Oh, and I had to be back at church at 3:30 today for this budget meeting. Right before we were supposed to leave (and Landon had already left), I fell asleep with James by myself for like 5 minutes. When I woke up it was time to go and I could hear him...in the toilet. I know that is extremely dangerous and we have had very few toilet incidents. I feel like we try to be really careful, but sometimes it just happens :( Landon accidentally left the bathroom door open when he left to go to the church before us. James had unrolled a BUNCH of the toilet paper and put it in the toilet and all over the floor. I just walked in and said, oh my. we have to go to church now. let's take off your shirt. and then I just shut the door behind us. :) When Kelli and I left our babies to walk across the street for awana, they were both screaming their heads off....yikes for dr. gary and mrs. liz keeping them tonight. they deserved a medal. i told them when i picked up james that they should go home and go straight to bed :) so, we are pretty much exhausted.
We did have a GREAT time with Malissa and Winfield Friday night. I just wish they could have stayed longer. OKAY. I realize this is a long and boring post...but...tis my life. Looking forward to the weekend starting tomorrow (Monday)....the life of a pastor family...
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Last Friday we joined the Wakeman family at Jaemor Farms. It was interesting, for many reasons. For one thing, I'd been to work that day for a couple of hours and not had a great time. #2 thing, because James was out of routine and with Landon during that time, he didn't take an afternoon nap - at all. So...YES...that seems like a great time to make some fun Frymire family memories. R...i...g...h...t. I'm even thinking, well, at least James will sleep on the way to the pumpkin path. R...i...g...h...t. Um, no. It was just sort of chaotic - combined with the Jaemor Farms experience, itself, being not so sparkling. The bright spot was spending time with the Wakeman's - who seemed to be having a much better day than we were :) James is getting to the stage where he wants to do everything himself. He pulls his hand away if you try to hold it. He throws himself on the ground if you try to pull him a certain way. He's sweeter now than he's ever been before...but he's also getting a definite little personality with his own IDEAS and WILL. This is interesting to watch. So...anytime we wanted to go left...James wanted to go right. Anytime we wanted to go to the pumpkins, he wanted to go to the slide. You get the picture. Here's Landon watching him go down by himself from this little step. He is usually very careful, so that's a blessing, at least.
This was literally the only thing he thought was fun - looking through these signs. Must've been because it was like "Boo". :)
Again, evidence our baby is growing up...
"No, Mom, if you want me to stand up, I will only drop to the ground with all my might."
YAY, though, fun moments on the slide...
Semi fun moments on whatever this was...
I think our experience at Jaemor Farms was very odd. Last year we went there and had a better experience. This year...it was like at the top of the slide the man who took your ticket had dip all in his mouth/teeth. At some of the attractions no one was there to take your ticket. I think what topped off the experience though was the Pumpkin Patch. The entire reason for going. We enter the Pumpkin Patch to take pictures...right? First, there are barely any pumpkins in there. Only a few small ones. Okay. Weird. Then, I have just taken Jason, Jeanette, and Finn's picture. All of a sudden, someone is yelling to us, "Excuse me." We turn to listen and see who is yelling. The person yells, "I'm sorry, but you're going to have to leave the pumpkin patch. It's closed."
UH, WHAT? The Pumpkin Patch is closed? I'm confused. Isn't that the reason people are coming to the Farm right now? To get a pumpkin? Clearly this is not making any sense to me. We finished up our night by eating at Sonny's so that, at least, help to redeem it :) Poor Wakeman's - they probably wished they could blink themselves out of our bad mood! We'll have to try to be extra fun next time we do something together. We didn't even buy a pumpkin in the store. So...I think I'm going to need to go to the Methodist church pumpkin patch and get a pumpkin or two today :) I'm wanting James to paint his this year!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
For the first time...ever...I went home alone (well, with James but without Landon) a couple weeks ago. I had really been missing my family, and Landon's mom and dad had just come up to see us, so I had been trying to figure out for a while how I could go home for a few days. At first we tried to figure out how Landon could come down and meet us and drive back together, etc., but it just wouldn't work out. So...I ended up driving the 6 hour trip with James by myself - by my own choice, of course. :) It was a decent trip on the way to Florida, although, I must say, when I got south of Montgomery and was just praying the Georgianna exit would come soon...and all of a sudden the traffic came to a complete stop...oh my word - I thought I might lose it. James was pretty good though, and it was so worth it. We had a great time. We got to spend LOTS of time with Grammie and GatorPa and also got to go over for cousin Madison's birthday party and see Landon's family! We spent lots of time at the tractor store...which James LOVED. He climbed from one mower, to the next, to the next....Here are a few pictures...
A Classic. :)
James feeding Katie some bread. Mom handed the bread to James to feed Katie and he took a big bite out of the bread himself - HA. He loved Katie. He would talk to her in the high pitched voice and say like he was singing, "Hi K. Hi K. Hi K." Ha. Over and over. It was hilarious.
One of the greatest (if not THE greatest) things about the trip was getting to spend a lot of time with my sister. She and I have not been super close, and I know our personalities are pretty different, but I just hate that as I get older. I really want us to be closer - even in the midst of very busy - and different - lives for both of us! She came over twice while we were home - one day spent the entire day with us visiting with family. But, the funn-est was on Monday when we met her down in Destin. She helped us shop for James a new pair of shoes and bought our lunch at Dewey Destin's - those crabcakes were awesome. Man, I love her!
Here's Krista helping me corral James in the Stride Rite Outlet :)
Ha - Oh my. James LOVED to climb up in GatorPa's chair.
Is he looking like a big boy or what?