I feel sort of a soapbox coming on about this...my mind was just spinning a million miles an hour about midnight thinking about this - who knows why, and I wanted to get up right then and write stuff down, but I didn't. I had a very wise lady at my last job tell me that she thought I'd be a great pastor's wife, except for my mouth. She said I was really going to have to watch my mouth or it was going to get me in trouble. I appreciate her telling me that, and she is right, sometimes I have a hard time controlling my tongue. I've learned over our past 8 years of marriage how to mix grace and truth better - because we've been through some difficult things - but it's still a process for me, and sometimes I feel so passionately about something, that I just want to railroad over everyone else to MAKE THEM DO WHAT I THINK IS RIGHT. Because clearly, I am meant to be the Holy Spirit in every one's life. :) I'm sure will read over this 100 times and try to make it less offensive - because I'm sure what I really want to write would offend even some in my own family.
I believe it's an honor to attend church on Christmas Day - this year when Christmas is on a Sunday. I believe churches across America should be PACKED with people...lining up to get into the door to honor Jesus on His birthday. What a privilege. What a privilege for me that He came into the world, a baby, just for me, to grow up and then DIE, painfully and horribly, just for me. What a privilege that I have the opportunity to know Him - that I have the opportunity to pray to Him, communicate with Him, feel His love (when I choose to), have someone to go to at any time and talk about any thing with. I just am shaking my head because I can't believe there's someone out there that I can count on all the time, without fail, and I, in my crazy weakness, don't choose to access that power daily sometimes and take FULL ADVANTAGE of what His power can offer me. I love Him. I don't deserve Him. I deserve hell. I love church anyway, but the thought of going on Christmas Day (even though we all know that's not the day he was really born) and singing praises to Him and worshipping Him, seems like the least, the very least I could give Him. Seems like we want to go on and on talking about how Jesus is the reason for the season....yada yada yada...but then we just keep busting around doing the same ole' thing. Buying gifts, traveling to see family, stressing out, cooking, blah blah blah. I've tried to think in my mind if because I think you should attend a Christmas Eve service or a Christmas service if Christmas is on a Sunday, am I being legalistic. I mean, sure, you can worship Jesus any day of the year, not just Christmas, and you know, you don't really have to join with others to worship Him, do you???? I mean, I believe you can wear jeans to worship or you can wear the fanciest dress you own from your 1990's prom and Jesus will still hear you. So, obviously then, I believe whether you attend a Christmas Eve or Christmas Day service, Jesus will still love you. He will still long for intimacy with you. He will still accept you fully and completely and wholly. But let me tell you what I'll be doing.